Stephen Graham Jones is a Blackfoot Native American and author of numerous novels, including the award-winning FC2 novels The Fast Red Road and The Bird is Gone, and one award-winning short story collection, Bleed Into Me. He is the Ivena Baldwin professor of English at the University of Colorado Boulder.

LEDFEATHER

By STEPHEN GRAHAM JONES

FC2

Copyright © 2008 Stephen Graham Jones
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-57366-146-1

Chapter One

We thought he was dead already just when he opened the door. Junior looked at me from behind the counter and I knew what he was asking: if I’d put the sign up or not? We were supposed to be closed was the thing. He’d already turned the grill off and loaded everything back in the freezer and locked it. All I was doing was lining up bottled waters in the short cooler. It was what we were having to make tea from that week, because it was the second snow already, before the first even usually came, and in East Glacier, you get that kind of wet in the ground and everybody’s driving into Browning to take their showers, because the water from the tap runs brown.

Instead of pulling the door shut, too, that kid, that Doby Saxon whose mom had married that crazy Yellowtail who didn’t even have an Indian name anymore, he just stood there like he was waiting for permission to come in, waiting for me or Junior to say to him it was okay if he had the snow crusted all over him still, that he could stomp it off in here if he wanted, that we’d mop it up later.

But then I looked to what he was looking at.

It was the back door, all the way through the dining room.

Because the front door was open, the back door was rattling, like somebody was trying to get in, or had just left. I’m not even sure the kid knew we could see him.

I started to say something but Junior held his hand up to me flat and sudden, his palm to the ground, a cut off motion I’d only ever seen him use once before, in a bar over in Havre, right before one cowboy stabbed another cowboy in the neck with some shiny kind of cow tool I’d never seen.

I sucked my cheeks in, went stiff, ready to walk away like we’d had to then-because stabbed-in-the-neck cowboys aren’t something an Indian can run away from in Montana-and didn’t even look up to Junior when he said whatever he said to the kid. It was Indian, two words maybe, or one long one, and I was pretty sure Junior only knew four or five all told, most of them having to do with cigarettes, because sometimes that’s the only way to get an old man to give you one, is to ask right.

What he said now, though, I don’t think it had anything to do with cigarettes. I asked him later what it translated out to and he said he didn’t remember saying it, but he was lying. I mean, I could go down to the old people’s home in Browning right now and, if I said whatever he said that night to Doby Saxon, I think every wrinkled old face in that room, that hasn’t even recognized their own kids for twenty years, every one of them would turn to me, to see if this white woman was really saying that, and where did she hear it?

And did the kid understand what Junior said?

I don’t know.

With Malory Sainte for a mom and a Yellowtail dad, he probably just knows cartoons and whatever you can learn from the label of a beer bottle. The only Indian they would have talked around him would have been about car starters and pawn stubs.

The kid did at least turn to the sound of Junior’s voice, and that’s when I saw that his truck wasn’t parked out on the curb, or across the street. The street was empty.

My face went hot and for the thousandth time I was glad I’d never had any kids on the reservation, because this is what happens. They drive off every road they can, and then, because it hasn’t started hurting yet, whichever one can still walk does, to the nearest light, his face packed with windshield glass.

But then I was running to him like he was my own son anyway, like they all were, and I was pulling him through the door, trying to get all the snow off at once, see where he was broken.

When I looked up to Junior, instead of calling the ambulance he was looking where the kid had been looking, at the back door, like some other Indian had just walked through, out, and he was trying to remember who it had been but it had been too long already.

He came back to me just as lost as the kid, then nodded slow like he does, pulled the phone off its rack.

This is how a night can start to last forever up here.

Inside of two minutes we had the table pulled out from one of the booths and the two bench seats pushed together, and the kid’s chin wasn’t even shaking, and that’s not good.

“Where are they?” I said to him, close to his face, trying to give him all the warmth I’d ever had, all the bodyheat he needed, and he focused his eyes down on me like he was trying to make sense of my words, or just be sure I was real, but then he went blank again, just staring through me, and over the next hour and a half his clothes finally started to melt, and a pool formed around him, for us to mop up later.

It wasn’t just snow, though.

The seats are orange so it was hard to tell at first, and the floor’s just that varnished wood you can’t tell anything with, but when Junior dipped his other dish towel down into the meltoff, it came back red, bloody, like that one side of the kid’s face.

“Hold on,” I said to him, “we called, they’re coming. You made it.”

This was the Blackfeet Reservation on a Saturday night in late November, though.

By the time the ambulance got there, it was Thanksgiving.

Chapter Two

I didn’t go to the hospital for Doby Saxon, I went to the hospital for his dad. But then every cop on the reservation was in the hall there, and one of them was asking me if I could do a test for them maybe?

I told him it was my day off, thanks.

He asked back what I was doing up there then?

I shrugged, lifted my chin hey to a nurse I knew.

The truth is that I was already doing a test, on my own time. I wanted to see if Earl Two Jobs-he’d made the name up himself-was a real Yellowtail like everybody said, if he was going to try to sneak into the hospital to see his only son, who was probably dying from exposure. I didn’t ask, but I was pretty sure Earl had a couple of bench warrants out on him. But game wardens don’t serve bench warrants.

Why I wanted to see him had to do with two elk racks that had shown up down in Great Falls over the summer. The warden down there had sent me the pictures because he knew that tines don’t get thick like that just on state grass. What it takes for postcard racks like he’d seized was some kind of preserve, the National Park kind. Glacier. And this time, finally, the horns had been sawed right out of the skull, so nobody was going to be saying they were sheds, and the way I knew they weren’t taken out in Landslide or some other part of Region 1, which is year-round, is that I have the two cut-open skulls in the vented box behind the office. More than that, I knew those two old bulls, had been glassing them since May.

When the fires hit Tar Ridge in late July, up past Volly’s, almost all the way to that second lake up there, the bulls had walked down the Line and crossed the road into Boulder, and Boulder’s off-limits all the time, unless you have twelve thousand dollars and a tribal guide. Unless you’re white, basically.

I know the elk crossed into Boulder because that’s where I found them, right there in Swiftcurrent Creek.

Somebody’d shot them from the road then hooked chains to them, dragged them halfway up onto the bank and gone to work on them with a chainsaw, just taking the hindquarters and the horns and the eyeteeth, probably driving away without any headlights even, because all the old poachers up here, they don’t need lights to know where the roads are.

As to why I wanted to talk to Earl Two Jobs about this-his born name’s Piney Saxon, and I don’t know what joker made that up-it’s that he was on that hotshot crew that went up to Volly’s in July, to stomp out the fire, keep it from crossing the Line into Glacier, where it would become a natural burn. And I can just see him riding in the back of that truck for two, three days in a row, watching those monster elk just standing there in the shallows, their racks mossy with velvet.

Him and the rest of the crew would have been sighting down through the scopes of their imaginary rifles and making jokes, sure, but only one of them had come back that night.

The reason I liked Earl Two Jobs for it is that when he came in for his tags in September he had a new rifle hooked over his shoulder, too expensive to leave in the truck for even five minutes.

Racks like the ones from Great Falls would pull anywhere from five to fifteen hundred dollars.

“Each one of these good for what, six head?” I’d asked him, passing the sheet of tags over.

He’d laughed, his blunt tongue pushed between his teeth.

If he was just getting meat, I could understand. This is land we’ve been hunting since before America was America, I mean, and if we don’t manage the Glacier herd, the cows will all be starving come January.

But when it starts to be about money, when you’re just grabbing some meat because the saw’s out anyway, then, yeah, I come up to the hospital on Thanksgiving, maybe wait for you.

The hours went by though, no Earl Two Jobs, and all there was to do was watch football in the waiting room and wait to see if Doby was going to live or become a statistic. They still hadn’t found his car, didn’t even know who’d been with him. Some snowplow driver would see something in a week or two, we all figured. If not, then the car would show up when the snow melted off, and we could have another funeral.

“Well then,” I finally said to everybody at halftime, and ducked out, nearly walked right into Malory Sainte.

She drew her lips in tight-her sister does that too, and I think it has something to do with getting locked up so much-had been crying it looked like, and just stared at me the way Indian moms can do when somebody has to take the blame.

I knew better than to say anything, just stepped aside, let her pass.

But then I couldn’t leave either.

Parked out in handicapped, the door still open like she’d just left it, was Earl’s truck. His little flatbed trailer was dragging behind it, empty.

Because Malory didn’t know how to unhitch it, or because she didn’t want to unhitch it?

The second, I thought. She was dragging the trailer around because she was going to need it.

I swept the snow from the driver’s seat for her and shut the door, looked to the hospital to see if she was watching. She wasn’t. I nodded, followed my hand down the bed rail.

The trailer was shopmade, just wide enough for two snowmobiles.

I looked north, to the clouds stacking up around Chief Mountain, then kicked the ice sludge from behind her rear tire and went back inside.

“Test?” I said to the cop who’d asked.

“Thought you were off today?” he said back.

“Hunting season,” I told him. “Twenty-four seven.”

He finished his plate of turkey and got me to follow him down to a black trash bag. It was all the clothes they’d cut from Doby Saxon.

The cop untied the bag then stood, let me see.

The clothes were soggy with blood.

“His?” I said, because I couldn’t smell it yet.

“Not a cut on him,” the cop said back.

“And you want to know …?”

“Do you have some test to tell if it’s human or not?”

Which is how I ended up with the bag in the bed of my truck.

Just down from the hospital and the clinic, on Death Row where all the elders and their families lived, I stopped in the middle of the road, untied the bag, let the smell I’d already caught mix with the woodsmoke in the air.

Not ten minutes later, every dog in Browning was pawing my truck. Because they’d been trained on this, knew the smell, knew that, when a truck pulls in with this kind of scent coming from the back, there’s going to be shortshanks and heads and maybe even the skin.

The blood Doby Saxon had been soaked in wasn’t human, but game.

Earl Two Jobs had gotten Malory to drop him and Doby off on some logging road over near the Line, Livermore probably, where the marker’s always bent down, and then they’d eased their snowmobiles into Glacier to hunt the Mineral Strip like the elders still say you’re supposed to be able to. And maybe they’re right. But, if we look the other way for that, then people are going to be popping mule deer out in the Sweetgrass Hills too, and after that, all of Montana probably, and it’ll be war again, and there’s not enough of us yet for that.

I don’t know.

I was sure of one thing that day anyway: I wouldn’t get to pin a ticket to Earl Two Jobs that season. Or ever.

He should have checked the weather before he slipped across the Line.

The maps had been frozen white for days.

Chapter Three

I would have stayed if he would have asked me to. If we were just there at the casino to collect his mom again. Even to just walk through, because we could. I’d hit eighteen four months ago. But Doby said this was him, that he had to do this.

Out at the edge of the parking lot he spread all his ID cards out on the dash of my car, then picked out his own.

The rest were for the liquor store, for videos, for off-rez, for wherever one Indian was the same as all the rest.

The casino’s different, though.

If their shiny new gambling license gets pulled, then fifty or a hundred people lose their jobs like that, come looking for whoever let that minor in the door. And then they go looking for that minor too.

So, yeah, we’d been in before, but with escorts, and just to peel Malory Sainte up from some table. Once Doby had to talk her out of the security room even, with the real cops on the way and everything.

I don’t remember what the charges against her were going to be that time. Probably destruction of property, maybe a PI. Both, more. That whole family, man, they’re Yellowtail through and through. Give them three dollars and instead of a loaf of bread, they’ll rub those three bills fast between their hands and then lay them down on some nappy green table, because this time it’s going to work.

And when it doesn’t, it’s everybody else’s fault.

That time his mother was in the box, though, Doby sucked his cheeks in like he can when he’s trying to look especially Indian-the main security guy was white-and told him the story of how the woman locked behind that door had sat by his bed in the hospital for nine weeks once, holding his hand, making him live. That she’d sung to him songs buried so deep that it tore her up inside, permanently, songs she didn’t even know she had, that her grandmother probably hadn’t even known, songs that kept him alive when the doctors had given up, when he had wanted to give up.

But Malory Sainte never did.

She’d lost her husband that winter. She wasn’t about to lose her son.

So, handing her over to the cops like the security guy wanted to do, what it would mean is her getting locked up for a month or two away from him. It would be the same as if he’d just died on the mountain four years ago. Her son would be gone from her anyway, the one she’d fought for, the one that shouldn’t even be alive anymore.

As far as I know, too, talking to that white security guard, that’s the first time Doby ever said it out loud like that, that he shouldn’t be alive, that he should have died up in Glacier with his dad.

It’s a bad thing to start thinking.

Before, all I’d ever heard of it-not that hunting trip, he never talked about that to anybody, not even his mom, and the snowmobiles never showed up, Earl either-all I’d ever heard was this bullshit paper our English teacher from Arizona had made us write.

Doby took hackysack for his subject, a joke, and then wrote about standing in a circle with me and Tone and Jamie at Indian Days, keeping the bag alive. How when he was playing it, and had the right cigarette in his mouth, he could focus only on that ounce or two of sand and leather, and how sometimes he would look up while the bag was in the air and see that he was all alone for miles, that Browning wasn’t even around him anymore, and how that was all right too.

And I only ever heard about that because our Arizona English teacher read it to the class when Doby wouldn’t.

Halfway through, he walked out.

I followed him that day, and kept following, through all the shit, the rolled-over cars and beer bottles to the back of the head and fires we didn’t know anything about and the walking back to town at four in the morning, the northern lights so hard and pink we even had watery shadows on the asphalt once. It made us feel like ghosts after about a quarter mile of it, and we started walking over in the grass instead.

(Continues…)

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